Feeling before the Start of the School

This week has been quite busy because of the preparation of the new school year and the meeting up with friends for the final round. Still, I am still afraid of spending too much. I have to let it go anyway... I dunno why I cannot feel the joy... seems that everything is the same and no surprise during this week. I really hope that this feeling will get away from me as soon as possible. I cannot imagine how one can be like with no real joy! I pray and I try to obtain more happiness.

On Friday, I attended the GSM and got to know more and more about the school duties. It is a bit scary but I know workload would not be a big deal as time always sets the limit for all the work and it will be finished with time one day. Maybe everything is too new for me or the old school is such perfect or there are so many negative comments on the new one, I still find myself lose my direction or detached from the school. The admin staff is terrible or too slow that really angered me a bit... Yet, I know that I should be patient and calm myself down a bit... it's never difficult for me to accept messy & slow work style... Maybe it is really not my destination. Indeed, I know my way. My goal is not achieve a high position in my career nor earn a lot. I just want to have a stable and happy family. Have a more than enough amount of salary is alright to support my family and myself or I do not mind if I need to devote myself to my family in raising children or so... I am a very traditional girl in this aspect...

On Friday afternoon, I met Esther and went to her new rented house for a visit as she wanted to tidy up her room before she moved there on Sunday. It is a nice house with a great view - greenary is attractive always for me! The beautiful indoor decorations are also fascinating! The house-keepers are so sweet! It was a tiring day to travel from Shatin to Fanling and Sheung Shui!

On Saturday morning, I went to Sing Yin for the last lesson. The group was quite impatient. It reminded me of some more interactions with Ss in lessons. Otherwise, they would fall asleep for sure. In the afternoon, I met my sister at Shatin Town Plaza for the Dior discount day and got some samples. Good that the salesgirls did not have to time to serve us and we left for our activities. She went to Kowloon City for lessons while I went to Causeway Bay for the Gold Medalist Show. It took me nearly an hour to go from Shatin to Causeway and the air-con bus was stilll baking ... I slept and looked ... at last, I got there and I took the ticket at Caroline Hill Road before I could see Vienna & Chu Chu. I met Ronald too.

We enjoyed the show there at HK Stadium. There were plenty people (Arpund 30000) and we saw a lot of athlets (gold medalists) & pop-stars e.g. Joey, Leo Koo, Ng Kok King, Ko Ho Ching, Kelly, Miriam, Charlean & Yip Tak Hang etc. COOL~~ Our CE - Donald Tsang & Mr. Fok... All the athlets looked well especially "Super-Dan" and Li Siu-pang etc. They looked strong and handsome... Kwok Ching-ching is pretty too! We even made the human-waves during the singing. The atmosphere was warm with all the red pop-pop sticks and nation flags! After the show, Vienna, Kannie & I looked for a place for dinner. It was not easy as everywhere was full! We finally got into a noodle store. I took a mini-bus back from Causeway Bay.

Share a joyful song with you. The theme song for HK Equestrian 2008 by Kelly Chen: 《飛躍共舞》

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m2hNc_u2MgA&feature=related 

時間飛逝，渺小的人類又算什麼呢？為何我們要為微不足道的事情而苦著口面呢？將要四年了，願漂泊尋覓的人生可找到居處。簡單平凡的生活，不是我們所追求的嗎？

願天父祝福世人，叫我們明白的旨意，不要偏離，使煩惱遠離，並用有限的生命，成就無限的使命，打美好的勝仗！

明天開學，心情難免忐忑。希望人人順利。開開心心。仍然牽掛著以往的一切！

A Fulfilling Summer

These summer holiday have been filled up with all the activities. It is fulfilling & meaningful though I have once felt too harsh for myself. Yet, when times goes by, I feel that I grow with the experience. In fact, I am one who wants to make good use of the time always and whenever I stop there, I feel I am wasting the time... that is why I had used to take up 7 tutorial jobs at a time during my undergraduate study, studied 21 credits every sem and joined all different kinds of classes: make-up, first-aid, travel escort, piano classes etc... I do not know why I did it though I did not really learn much each time... This year (2008), I got my block placement (40 hours per week) starting from June, joined the Olympic Equestrian Voluntart work and all the training, plus the Sing Yin teaching as usual. They almost came one after one. I felt that I had "abandoned" my family and friends for some time and felt guilty for that. At the same time, I also need to do the transition work for my change of new job... not to mention thecomplicated job-application process: reading recruitment news, sending letters, editing my resume & letter, interviews for several rounds, deciding, researching and confirming... all neraly drove me into a mess at a point of time. At that time, I realize that time is precious and we can never buy time and happiness...

Anyway, when everything came to the end, I felt released and relaxed... I thanked God for furnishing me with this chance. In the placement, I obtained an insight from some sharing with friends and learnt much more about the ethnic minorities. I felt close with them and got a strong feeling that time can change the feeling towards one and could cultivate a better relationship and understanding towards each other. The 10-week lets me know that time is POWERFUL!

The Equestrian event has been a golden chance as HK is such a small city belonging to China. It can also host one of the Olympic events in 2008~ I could even get an opportunity to be part of it. As the CIS- Sponsor Service Assistant Team, I was mainly serving the suite guests, leading them from teh drop-off point to the suite.. I have been waiting at the drop-off point, holding the flag "Suite Guest" to bring them to the entrance. I also have been leading them from the  entrance to the security check. I also have been waiting at the security check to the suite. Sometimes, I served at the merchanized store to control the crowd by telling them to buy souvenirs outside the fore-court. I saw Mr. Donald Tsang at the drop-off point, being interviewed by the media. I saw Ms Elsie Leung, Mr. Tong Ying Lin, Mrs. Chow Leung Suk Yi; also the principal of HKU, Mr. Tsui and other experts such as Mr. Tsoi Tsz Keung & Mr. Lau Tsun Yi; for big businessmen, I saw one of the Brother Kwok- Kwok Ping X, Mr. Stanley Ho and also the next year Chief Executive of Macau... Wow~ they were all suite guests though I did not lead all of them. I did saw them and they were just a few steps away... I could not imagine.

One interesting encounter was when I was leading a foreigner who was also the suite guest. He kept on talking and persuding me to go to the Ocean Park.. I also felt strange why he loved Ocean Park so much. While I asked where he came from, he handed me a name card. He was the Chief Executive of the Ocean Park- Mr. Tom Mehrmann. At the end, he also recommended his colleagues who was responsible for the Holloween to me. He wanted me to bring students there.. hahaha... He is such a funny gentleman~ felt sorry for knowing so little news about business and polical setors.. That's why I cannot recognize faces at all...

Thursday (21/8) was the last competition day for Olympic Equestrian Event. Everyone was excited as it was also the last day for nearly all of the volunteers if they did not help at the Paralymics. Vienna, Warren, Kannie and I gathered at Shatin KCR and got onto the shuttle bus a around 3:30 pm. We took photos with the torch fire and the venue before the duty started. The sun was so strong that day. Luckily, I brought a cap bought from the MS store... a smart black equestrian cap. I got two from the suite store. Many people wanted it and asked me where to get it. I could tell but the no. was limited and it was relly popular. I gave one to my dad and also got 6 towels with one Mascot on each towel for my family - lovely!! I also spent in the store coz I love Beijing. I love BEijing Olymics especially one I could help in. I served outside the suite as a recetionist that night and watched the competition and the medal presenting ceremony. Though it was crowed and hot outside the air-conditioned suite, I felt great~~ Live show is always exciting and great~~~

After that, my team also got a chance to eat inside the suite, where all the celebrities were in... I ate something and all of us hurried out to take photos on the competition court ~ we seized a chance to step on the champion stand.. after 2 rounds, I could move from the 1st runner up to the champion... hahaha.. the whole group took a photo ~ It was getting late, I left with Vienna at around 1 am... but missed the chance to take photos with the 5 Mascots.. but that was alright bcoz I got other precious photos with friends! I even met my secondary school mate, Kan. She is not a volunteer but one of the staff of the BOCOG~ Wow~ catering team. She got a good working experience for her CV! I am also happy making friends with so many people. They also got a good heart in serving~ good!

I got hoem at around 2:15 am with the help of the taxi at WTS. I quickly packed up and took a shower, waiting for the Sing Yin teaching.. then the weather report announced that typhoon signal no.9 was hoisted... wow~ unbelivable. I slept again.. but next Sat, I need to teach for the make-up class.. oh oh.. but still a good rest.

Today, Esther helped me to pick up the things from LKPF and picked me up at TWS. We headed for Shatin MCSSS. She and her friend, plus the driver also helped me sending the lugguage. Thanks~ thwn I set off for the meeting held by Cheung Man Kong about the "killing of schools". Many teachers expressed their views. I agreed that the govt should work out a wise plan instead of killing the schools who still hold the values. Is HK edu only aiming at elites? Does it think about how the elites would be affected if the band 3 students also move up to the band 2 and then band 2 to band 1? The existance of the band 3 schools also holds a value and how can we undermine or neglect the effort of the teachers who are willing to work and contribute? Anyway, I also hope that the gov't can have a long-sighted plan .. not just killing and reviving year after year ... confusing the public and messing the teachers at the same time. Then I backed school for another 2 meetings... the orientation for parents and PTA which was not really related to all the teachers... strange...Then I left with Teresa and Yankee.

I also contributed one poem to the volunteer memento album.. dunno if it will be published.. but I also learnt from my teaching ... hahaha... Let me share with you!

Equestrian

Equality shared among nations

Queens and kings step on the palace of medals

Uniting seven continents and five oceans

Echoed with the laughter all over the world

Sure win! Hurrah!

Together we cheer, we cry, we clap

Round and round we dance, we drink, we dare

Ice-breaking international event

Are we ready?

Never-ending notable network with nostalgia

Today should be a good day as I went to Sing Yin in the morning for a meeting as what I have been doing for nearly 5 years. I met Anita, Ronald and Ms Cheng (Mrs Kwok)... We had good time discussing the lesson plans and great to meet again! Anita, Paul and I went to have lunch together! There was much fun and I simply do not know why I could not stop myself from laughing once there was a funny thing and when I saw Anita's smiling face, I started to laugh again... I am totally infected with the laughters.. hahaha... We talked and laughted till around 1 pm and I set off for Fortress Hill to obtain my Escort certificate, which has been ready for nearly 3 months or even more. After that, I webt to Festival Walk for my free gift - Dior Addict! I also bought a set of cosmetic again there as it is price-worthy - $304 for a whole set~ Wow! It is the price for only 1 bottle on normal day! Special offer always makes me happy! Before I left, I walked around again and tried to get some more clothes.. but I failed even after trying on 2 dresses at b+ab and love the grey butterfly one-piece dress... That was the only one and I could not put up that with so many people trying on with deteriorating cotton condition though the salesgirl kept on telling me that was not a big deal...I gave up anyway... Am I too picky? Yet, I really cannot put up the impression of "dirt"... though it looks quite nice and fit!!

Last night (31/7), I was so glad to have a hot pot with my 2A girls: Olivia, Ruby, Doki, WYY & Miki. It was sad that Becky was sick, hoping that we can meet again later in September or so... We talked and took photos and had a big meal! They are really lovely girls and I am sure that they will have a bright future and husband as they are so appealing and smart! They are loving and you know that they care you so much~~ with lovely face too! We left very late at night and I was quite worried about their safety. Luckily, they were all home safely and I got a message from Olivia~ Good!

The good day was a bit disrupted by a small incident when George called me and asked me about my account no. and also my new change of job. I know he got a good intention but still it made me worried a bit as I have been prepared to go there and would not wanna start from the beginning again... He tried his very best to ask anybody that he knew about the school and reported to me everything. One call, two calls, three calls... to remind me .. I doubted and became unsure again whether I should start my job-seeking again... You know, I am always such a week person with not much self-confidence.. but he kept on giving me negative comments on the school. Although I have been prepared, I am still not yet ready to accpet further blows! I told him to tell me step by step and he also got a good skill to assure me ~ emphazing that I deserve more than that and how good I am etc... I felt warm after listening to his words but still need to think carefully what I should do next as he has been working so hard in the whole afternoon to collect data for me. Thanks so much!

我依然感到自己頗好勝、任性。他人越是這是困難，自己越是想嘗試。我也問自己，這是妳的意願，或是天父的安排？他曾說："你心裡是知道的。妳清楚問問吧！" 我就再給自己一次機會吧。繼續看看，終於選了一份，明天寄信。天父，讓我更清晰，可以嗎？

無論工作，或是其他，我也對自己懷疑。有時，我也明白這是對祂的信心不足吧！更甚的是，自己感到茫然、自私。明明這不是自己想要，或是應當得的，也想他向著自己。這是不當的！所以，我一直也只可逃避，有時偽裝著，不知他人會否感到我冷漠。作為朋友，若是沒可能，或是同性的，顯然，我會表現更自然，或許，更熱情呢。我也喜歡分享自己的事，也不是時常喜歡獨處呢！

實習進入最後兩星期，希望可快些完成，也令那些使我感到模糊不清的想法和事情挪開。時間的確可令我忘記背後，也使我可重新投入。有時，我也不清這是自己的多愁善感，錯覺，還是很多人也是搖擺不定，四處"播種"。我真的不想踏"鋼絲"。大家的感覺突然奇怪起來，我更是不自然。無論如何，我深信神會帶領的。我應信靠祂！

希望Paula和Jo快些回來，與我分享更多。不然，我便會過份受他們影響。他一言，他又一語。我真的不知那是真。這些日子，我要學習更自主獨立！